Friday, June 22, 2012


Don't Cry Because It's Over, Smile Because It Happened.

Don't Worry, Things Get Better. I Promise.

When I Say I'm OK, I Sometimes Wish Someone Would Hold Me Tight And Say, "I Know Your Not."

Overalls Are Really, Truly, Pretty Snazzy. 

Isabel followed her shadow into the dark alleyway. She had been tracking it for some time now, and was positive that she would catch it any second. She had first noticed the thing to be acting strange when she was on the basketball court with her friends in gym. Mallory, her dear friend, was contemplating wearing pink converse high tops to the dance that Friday, or sticking with her traditional blue Toms. To fully choose, Mallory had worn the converse to show her friends and get their opinions. So, obviously, everyone was staring at the ground; more specifically at her shoes. Isabel looked at the shoes, shaking her head and moaning, wishing that she had parents who owned a clothing store chain just like Mallory’s did so that she too could get a high enough allowance to buy those shoes. But, everyone knew, not only could Mallory’s allowance buy those shoes, but they could buy them two times over and still be left with enough to catch a movie with some friends. The perks of being filthy rich!
As Isabel stared at the ground some more, barely listening to the conversation Mallory was now having about her hair, she saw someone strange on the ground. It was her shadow. It was facing the opposite direction of her friends shadows around her. She looked left and right to make sure no one was staring. She didn’t want people to think she was weird because of this. But, as she stared more closely at her shadow, she felt a chill crawl up her spine like a creepy, fuzzy spider on its web. She wanted to know what was going on, and how this was happening. The dark shadow seemed to stare back at her, and although she couldn’t see its eyes, she could almost feel them glaring at her. And, between blinks, Isabel saw the shadow shake its head ‘no.’ Apparently, the shadow didn’t want to tell Isabel what was going on. But, Isabel being Isabel, however shocked she was feeling, would not go down without a fight.
After school, Isabel rushed home without even stopping at Starbucks for her regular after-school latte. She knew she would pay for it when she failed to stay up late writing her report for history that night without the extra caffeine boost, but the essay wasn’t on her top to-do and to-care-about lists at the moment. Right then, all she could care about was her strange acting shadow. 
As Isabel threw open her front door, she flew up the stairs and into her bedroom. A good thing about her room was that it had a large window. And, that window welcomed a whole bunch of sunlight into her room, especially on a day like today. Isabel placed her bag and phone onto the bed, and stepped into the sunlight’s rays, making sure her whole body was covered. When she looked down, she saw shadow, which seemed to be staring right back at her. Isabel, on instinct, lifted her right hand and waved it in the air. Her shadow waved back. Just like normal. Isabel jumped up in the air, and her shadow copied the exact motion. Finally, Isabel picked up an umbrella lying on the ground under her desk, and grasped it tightly in her hands. She took a deep breath, and hardly poked her shadows head with the tip of the umbrella. Two things happened then. One, Isabel felt a sharp pain in her forehead, and two, the shadow- her shadow- slipped out from underneath her. To her, it felt like someone pulling a rug from beneath where she was standing. So, Isabel fell hard to the ground. She looked up at the window, and saw her shadow, looking very overpowering now that it wasn’t shadowing her, lifting up the window’s glass by itself. Isabel quickly jumped up and ran a couple strides to the window. But, just as she outreached her hand to grab the mysterious shadow, it was gone. She looked out the window, and down on the sidewalk saw one of the strangest things possible: a shadow with no person. Her shadow was officially running away. 
Isabel, relying again on instinct, sprinted out of her room, down the stairs, and out the front door. She looked at the place where the shadow was lying just a few brief seconds ago to find it not there, but farther away. Immediately, Isabel began sprinting after her shadow. Not only did she not know what she was going to do once she caught the shadow, but how she was going to explain this to meaningless bystanders and her vivid imagination. 
She had run a few blocks past her street when the shadow tried to trick her. It crossed the street, causing her to sprint through the traffic to the other side, where it watched her all the while as it was perched in the tree like a kite. Once Isabel got nearer, the shadow jumped up and resumed its chase. The weird thing about the shadow was that it didn’t run, it sort of slid along the sidewalk in a running position it’s head facing the trees, and its feet facing the street. 
On and on the shadow went, going more slowly now as Isabel gasped for breath. It seemed to be tired just as she was. But, it kept going, always staying one step further ahead of Isabel’s grasp, until they reached the alleyway. 
Isabel felt as close to the shadow than anytime before when she was chasing it. And, part of that reason was because the shadow was coming to a stop at the brick wall that was also the end of the alley. Isabel felt a smile crawl across her face, which immediately diminished once she saw another reason the shadow stopped. Standing against the brick wall was a tall man with a large dark overcoat, and large sunglasses seeming very suspicious. Very suspicious indeed. 
Now that she was only a few feet away from the figure, Isabel halted and stared at the figure. The man, she concluded the gender by his physique, had placed his hand into his overcoat and was pulling the overcoat out as if about to show Isabel something. Isabel knew she should run, expecting to see a gun, but stayed where she was frightened and intrigued. Isabel felt as though the man being positioned there and her shadow running to the exact place were no coincidences. And, she seemed to be correct as the man opened his jacket to show darkness, causing Isabel to relax only a slight bit. But, as he opened his jacket, her shadow jumped off the ground and got sucked into the mans jacket. Then, the man spoke.
“Who are you and why has your shadowed released itself of your presence?” the man asked in a burly, strong voice that could only belong to a man of many adventures, one who enjoyed telling stories and did so frequently. He also seemed like the type of many who liked answers swiftly and did not appreciate waiting. Even so, Isabel just stared at the man, shocked and confused. Her shadow released itself? From her presence? What did this all mean? She did not know. 
“I’m waiting for an answer young lady,” the man said very firmly and with a hint of anger brewing inside him.
“My shadow released itself from me? What do you mean? I saw it acting strangely, and I hit it with an umbrella and it somehow got away. Who are you? And, where have you placed my shadow?” Isabel countered back to the man. He had not expected such rudeness from someone whose shadow he possessed. He was supposed to have the upper hand, but instead felt as though the girl had it.
“The answers to your questions are none of your business. Your shadow is in good hands now. Tell me your name so that I may record it for future observation and communication if needed. Or, just run along and leave me be,” the man said. He didn’t really need her name, and was almost certain that she wasn’t the one, and was of very little importance. 
“No! Give me my shadow. You have no right-“ Isabel began but the man stopped her.
“I have every right. Your shadow ran away from you, meaning that you mistreated it in some way. It is in my authority now,” the man concluded.
“And, what kind of authority is that?” Isabel asked, expecting something of not great authority. The man looked down at his watch, obviously seeming too busy to want to answer her silly questions. 
“Fine. My name is Isabel Creek. And, I wish for you to return my shadow to me as well as an explanation and apology for the hassle that you put me through,” Isabel huffed and puffed, finally turning away. In her mind, she wanted to leave with some upper hand and dignity. Maybe she would forget about her shadow, and everything would be fine. Maybe. 
She turned away and began walking out of the alley. The man smiled as he watched her go, never having encountered someone with so much attitude. Although, he had never encountered anyone that old, that smart, or cunning enough to follow their shadow all the way to him before. She was very interesting in her own way, he thought. But, as he saw her step into the light and the sidewalk, he gasped. Somehow, in some strange, unknown way, the girl had a new shadow. The man felt her old one squirm within his jacket, proving that this situation was more peculiar than he had labeled it. Quickly, he began to follow the girl out, knowing that he wasn’t to stop until he had Isabel Creek in his custody, and had the answers.  



Wednesday, June 6, 2012


Well, since I wasn't included in the 24 Hour Film Festival, I still wrote a script for what I was thinking about doing. And, although I was never given a theme, action, or object, I gave myself my own object (Coin), action (Use of Jar), and theme (The Unknown Truth). 
So, here it is!!!!



START!

Scene One:
Boy 1 walks down the street. He has nerdy glasses, and his backpack is very high. He walks slowly. Bully 1 and friends run up behind him, and shoves him into the bushes. They laugh and run away. The boy struggles in the bush. QB walks up and offers his helping hand. (Camera close up on hand, and then the other boy grabbing the hand) Boy 1 rubs his hands on his jeans, and looks up to thank the boy. But, QB is nowhere in sight. Boy 1 looks down on the ground, and notices a quarter. He picks it up and flips it over. He looks around one more time and walks away.

Scene Two:
     Girl 1 sits with her back against a tree, feet bunched up near her stomach, and is crying her eyes out into her knees. She hears footsteps in the grass and looks up. QB walks over to her and sits down next to her. QB places his hand onto her hand. She squeezes his hand. Girl 1 begins crying again. QB sits with her until she is ‘all cried out,’ and Girl 1 stands up. She bends down pick up her bag, and when she looks back up, QB is walking away. She calls out to him. He turns and stares at her. She smiles. He smiles. They both turn away. Girl 1 looks at her enclosed palm, slowly opens it, and looks at a quarter. She walks away.

Scene Three:
     Boy 2 walks in the empty hallway with a large pile of books. The stack is very large, and the boy struggles with looking to see where he is going. He begins walking down the stairs and into the library in the middle of the locker room when he trips and stumbles to the ground. He immediately begins picking up the books. QB walks over, picks up a book and hands it to the boy. The boy looks up, thankfully, at QB. QB helps with the rest of the books, and turns away. Boy 2 holds his hand up, wanting to say something, but QB is already almost out of the door. Boy 2 looks down and sees the quarter. He picks it up and stares at it, and then the door in which QB walked out of. Boy 2 walks out of the library and locker room.
Camera zoom over to the door that QB left. See him watching the boy look at the quarter, smile and walk away. QB smiles and turns away. Camera follow him home. When he gets home, show a staircase with a balcony. QB Mom begins yelling at him. QB looks down and walks away. Camera show QB Mom screaming some more, and then a door slam. 
Show QB in his room. QB lays down on his bed and closes his eyes. QB opens his eyes again and a tear streams down his face. 

Scene 4: 
     The next day, Boy 1 walks to school. He picks up a school newspaper and begins reading it. Boy 1 freezes and camera closes up on his shocked face. 
Show newspaper. Camera glide across title: Cedar Brook High School. Camera show top headline: Cedar Brook B-Ball Team Beats Valley Oak! 10-2. Camera moves down paper until it gets to the corner at the bottom. Camera zoom in and read title: Teen Suicide Strikes the School. Have it show a picture of QB sorta-smiling. Move down into the small one-paragraph article. Close up on words: 14-year-old, bullied, sadness, horrible, just plain mean, investigation. 
Scene Five:
     Camera close up on green grass and a pair of converse walking. Turn camera around, and show a large, empty cemetery. 
      Boy 1 stops at the very first tombstone and looks around. He takes a deep breath and begins walking again. He passes more tombstones, not bothering to look at them. Camera show his face being determined and his eyes looking straight ahead. 
      Back camera up so it shows large piece of land, and you can barely see Boy 1 walking. Watch him finally stop a tombstone and freeze. Have him stare at it for a long while, and have camera glance at the writing on it, skipping the name: April 18th, 1998- May 25th, 2012  “Life should be lived to the fullest as long as you still call it yours”
      Look at the boys face, which now has a tear streaming down it. Camera shows boys’ pocket, and boy inserting his hand into the pocket. Watch him pull out the quarter, and flip it over in his hands. Show whole boy bending down and beginning to place the quarter at the center of the tombstone where a small arrange of flowers lie. Have the boy notice another quarter from a camera staring from a side view. Show the whole tombstone again, and how it is covered with a line of quarters moving to the edge of the right side.  Camera move along the line of quarters just as the boys eyes would. Move the camera to watch the boy place his hand around the back of the tombstone, and pull out a jar full of quarters. The boy places the jar down in the middle of the front of the tombstone. Camera watch him place the quarter into the jar. Camera close up as it falls into the already almost-full jar. Camera watch boy stand up and walk away. Camera look back down on the ground and close-up on a flower. 
       Camera fade to black.

THE END!

Thursday, May 31, 2012


This first poem is one that I wrote that I was originally going to use in the Maximum Ride writing thingy....

EARTH

The earth cries
Because of us
Trying to get our attention
No one watches

The earth tries to roar 
It's murderous roars
That rumble and shake our houses
No one seems to listen

We don't seem to care
We think it is rare
When the Earth can hurt us back
We seem to like hurting her

We pollute her air
We litter her beaches
We oil her oceans
We cut down her trees and mountains

No, the earth doesn't like it
She cries up mighty storms
But, we don't get scared
Because we know how to fight back

She wants us to cry too
But only some do
And that includes 
the Flock and me

All the earth wants 
Is to breathe easily
To smile and gleam and shine 
That is why she cries

This is just a random one....

RAINBOWS

Millions of colors lined up like soldiers
Marching across the damp blue sky
Revealing the happiness
There goes the rainbow

Rainbows represent the good in life
No one can destroy the good, just try
It is beautiful, making no sounds
Showing that there can be peace in the world.
See you next time rainbows. 




LIFE



Teardrop streams down your face
The moon drifts across space
Both relate to

Life


Words and hate mix
A simple selection of cruelty and wrong doing
What might be felt is a throwing of bricks
Will just be words
Teardrop streams down your face

Stars and galaxies in a tight fix
All connected in a pot brewing
Clinging, clanging, clashing like a pile of sticks
Is just silence interwoven with beauty
The moon drifts across space

Yelling, screaming, cursing and flicks
You don’t know what you’re viewing
Colors, memories, and dreams spill across the burned pix
Nothing left to keep
A teardrop streams down your face

Hidden beneath all is six
Magnificent things screwing
With your emotions and conflicts
Beauty beyond compare like the moon
The moon drifts across space

Life
Relates to everything
The moon drifts across space
A teardrop streams down your face

Isn't it scary to think that one day, all of this will be gone?
By 'all of this' I mean everything that we hold near and dear to our hearts.
At the moment, we think social networks and friends are what we care about most.
But, in a blink of an eye, all of that can change.


One day, things can be jolly good and fine.
And, then the next day, it falls apart.
All of a sudden, you feel disconnected, broken, abandoned.
All of a sudden, you don't even know who you are anymore.


All that you know is who you used to be, and then you dwell on the im-positives.
But, it takes a few weeks of crying and hating everything until you realize that life isn't over.
Yes, you were shunned out of existence by the ones you supposedly called your friends...
But, its not the end.


It's actually just the beginning. A new one. 


I grew a plant on my windowsill.
It was a parsley plant.
And, it took a while to start growing.
I felt so upset because all of my other friends' parsley plants were huge and luscious.
And, mine was just a bunch of mud and seeds.
Then, one day, I saw the first green speck of a plant bud.
I was so excited and happy. 
I knew that I wasn't a failure.
And, things in my life seemed great at the moment. 
My friends were happy.
I was happy.
Life was happy.
The plant stayed nice, and it grew bigger and bigger, until one day it outgrew the cup!
But then, things took a turn for the worst.
First, the texts came. Then, the awkwardness. Then, the tears.
Until, it came to this moment of my life. 
I had gotten so caught up with my own life, that I hadn't cared for the plant as much as I should've.
And now, the plants dead.


I'm sorry plant.


To lighten the mood, I shall end with a joke!!!


What's brown and stick-like?


.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.


A STICK!!!!!




lol

Tuesday, May 22, 2012


I feel this way constantly. All I truly want and need is sympathy. I just want there to be one person that I can cry on their shoulder, and then have them just pat me on the back the whole time and tell me that things don't get better, but they can certainly not get any worse. Of course, the only person that I know that would truly do that for anyone is me. (Not to be all self-centered and all)


People say that if you do this, you are strong. But, is it true? Or, are you just a child who can't forgive and forget. You can't just move on in life. You can't be someone that people don't admire for your courage and strength for pretending that nothings wrong. Who are you?


Why would other people think that being strong means that you can hurt them? Just because a wall is said to be very strong, doesn't mean you should throw everything you've got at it. Just because the Titanic was said to be unsinkable, doesn't mean that it should purposely hit every iceberg that comes within its path. Just because someone is said to be strong doesn't mean you should crush them and conquer them with horrible words. It doesn't make them strong, nor does it make you strong.  



My Response: Can you seriously not hear me, or do you not care to listen?



Smile and laugh. Then, once you get home, cry. That's my best tip. 


Could the Jewish mothers and fathers do anything as their children were ripped from their arms and sent to different concentration camps during the holocaust? Then, why can't we accept the fact that we can't change anything if this happens as well?



Just believe me.



That totally summed up middle school!! 


I would just do what I would want them to do to me. Hug me, and tell me it could be worse. 



If only we could all read people's minds....


TRUE DAT!



TRUE DAT AGAIN!


'nuff said. 



Mine? How'd you know I had one... o.O 
U Smile.
Justin Bieber
Tacky but still brings tears to my eyes when I hear it. 


Maybe if you stopped trying to be perfect I could stare at you without being blinded by your huge ego, and thick, dark lies. 



I let you vent. 
For hours.
Months.
Years.
I need a minute now.
But, now you don't have time. 
Sorry to bother you while you are stuck in the foggy perfectness of your whole life. 

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Across the large unknown, full of darkness and depressing sadness, at the bottom of the trench of loneliness, I see you lay crying. What do I do? Without a moment of even contemplating, I march across the land, not caring about my own misery or the torture I endure, only about you. I care about you so much that I would help you out in any situation. I run down the trench, and lay down at the bottom with you.
I let you cry on my shoulder. I let you whisper your sadness into my ears. I let you take my happy thoughts and bring them into your own self. I let you build up your strength again. I give you everything you need.
By the time I am done helping you, you are able to crawl back out of the trench and across the land to the place where happiness lies. But, here I lay. Now that I have given you all that I had, I am not strong enough to crawl back out of the trench. I just lay here, now.
Full of loneliness.
And sadness.
Why don't you come back? Why don't you come and help me back up? I give you help, the least you could do is give me some too. Right?
Well, I guess not.
You just leave me.
So, I sit here.
Not knowing what to do.
Coldness and darkness begin seeping through my veins and start becoming me.
Then, one day I see it.
Right there!
Is it true?
Is it real?
A light.
A bright light!
It's at the top of the trench. Does it see me? Is it here to help me? Is it you?
Maybe you have learned from your old, cruel ways, or maybe, just maybe...
I have found my own angel to take care of me. 

Thursday, May 10, 2012

How can life seem fine when its actually crumbling down all around you?
You feel like everything is fine and dandy, and then one day it hits you.
You feel crushed, as if everyone else was aware of the changes occurring, and you didn't.
It feels like everyone was aware that the earth was collapsing, tearing away the ground right beneath them, leaving them above a pit of nothingness that they eventually have to fall in. But, they move just in time. And, then they watch as the ground tears away under you, and don't warn you. 
Then, you just f
                           a
                             l
                              l in.
At the bottom, you lay.
Crying day after day.
Because that's all that's left to do.
When it's dark, and it's just you.
Alone, at the bottom.
Nobody caring to help you out.
That's how it's like,
When no one cares a whole lot.


Words.
They always seem to crumple up my thoughts and feelings, and toss them into the burning fire searing through my broken heart.
How come they have so much power over me? How are they able to control me in the way that they do?
Words always seem to be there when I am happy. They seem to inspire me to become even more happy, or seem to make me think harder about the life I have, and how I'm living it. But, sometimes, words just seem to turn good, happy days into depressing, lonely ones.
Words always seem to be there when I am sad too. They seem to try to comfort me, but fail miserably. They don't seem to understand that they don't always help. Sometimes, they just hurt.
Words. Have. Effects.
Don't use them if all you are going to do is cover up the sun with a towel of rain clouds.
It creates a war with no winning side, with the knowledge that there is nothing worth fighting for.
It just leaves behind ash, destruction, and tears.
Words.